HAVING TROUBLE FUNCTIONING DUE TO TRAUMATIC MEMORIES? – EMDR CAN HELP

Anxiety can be debilitating, causing a lack of focus and the inability to function. Learn how to deal with it in this informative post.

Does it seem like your life after betrayal has been turned upside down? You don’t feel like yourself but aren’t quite sure what’s going on. When someone close to you betrays your trust, it can be traumatic. It can leave you with an array of both physical and emotional symptoms much like people experience after having faced a life-threatening situation. These symptoms reflect a mental health condition known as PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder). Commonly pegged as the battlefield that continues after war, it’s no longer dedicated strictly to the military. PTSD can afflict anyone recovering from a traumatic event—even you. How can you know if you may be experiencing PTSD due to betrayal? Start Slowly After betrayal, wrapping your head around all that you’ve been through can be immensely difficult. Still, do your best to examine your current condition. It will probably serve you as a welcomed distraction. Start slowly and start with the easiest to identify—your body. Your physical symptoms are tangible. In fact, they’ll probably stick out to you like a sore thumb. You can start with keeping a journal of how you feel from day to day. Doing this will help you identify any symptoms that could be related to your traumatic experience. Physical Symptoms Some common physical symptoms related to PTSD include: Insomnia or nightmares (often about details of the betrayal) Chronic upset stomach Tightness or burning in chest Muscle aches Headaches or migraines General feeling of pain throughout body Changes in appetite (increase or loss) Also, I should categorize substance abuse on this list. Some people can easily overlook it as a socially acceptable way to cope. Take stock in what you’re putting into your body. For instance, are you drinking more alcohol or taking more pain pills than you were before the betrayal? Are illegal drugs now a part of your life? It’s important to remember that the entirety of who you are—body, soul, and mind—work closely together. When one part of you is off-kilter, the rest of you will reflect this imbalance. In short, paying close attention to your body is a reliable way to gauge what’s going on a little deeper inside. Emotional Symptoms After betrayal, your emotions might feel shattered. It’s safe to say that you have a broken heart. Experiencing PTSD symptoms because of a broken heart might seem far-fetched. Yet, the two are more closely related than you may know. Feelings of anger, sadness, and grief are normal after betrayal. Though, PTSD brings on even more intense feelings. Such feelings include: Hopelessness Loss of interest in things you used to enjoy Depression Prolonged sadness Feelings of extreme mistrust Anxiety or panic attacks Emptiness or numbness It can seem difficult to tell the difference between PTSD and general upset from learning of the betrayal. One important indicator that you’re dealing with more complex emotions is the length of time they stick around. Although highly unpleasant, the typical emotions you feel after betrayal tend to fade away as your heart heals. When PTSD is at work, you don’t find a reprieve in the fading. In short, your negative emotions don’t fade away when you suffer from PTSD. Mental Symptoms Like mentioned before, your world could feel completely upside down after learning of the betrayal. You may have lost trust in someone you previously thought you could trust implicitly. Unfortunately, something like this doesn’t leave your mind and thoughts untouched. After betrayal, it’s normal to have a negative perception. Like emotional pain, this too should gradually fade away as you recover. PTSD doesn’t let go that easily, though. Following are some symptoms to be aware of that negatively affect your mind. Again, watch out for them over a longer period of time (at least a month and often longer). Panic attacks Fearful of the world around you Highly distracted Unable to focus at work, home, or school Not able to function socially like your pre-betrayal self Suicidal thoughts Paranoia or hypervigilance If you’ve identified PTSD symptoms within yourself as you read this post, then it’s time to seek professional help. PTSD might seem incredibly intimidating because of stories you’ve heard on the news. The truth is that it is a big deal, but it’s not so big a deal that a professional therapist can’t help you through it. Life after betrayal can bring an onslaught of complex emotions. You can recover and heal. Contact a trusted therapist to help you reclaim your life.

Anxiety might seem like a harmless little word to some people. But if you’re battling anxiety, dealing with heart palpitations, or even struggling to control racing thoughts, you know anxiety is anything but benign. Here’s the thing, though. It doesn’t have to rule your life. Although it’s not always possible to avoid stress, you can learn to manage it better and lessen its impact on you. Admit it. The idea of life without all the symptoms of anxiety sounds pretty great, doesn’t it? Following are five tips that will help you control racing thoughts and say goodbye to those nasty heart palpitations. 1. Deep Breathing Techniques The very first thing you need to stock in your arsenal against anxiety is a deep breathing technique. Inhale slowly through your nose or through your lips like your sipping from a straw. Fill your lungs completely. Some people like to hold this deep breath for a few seconds before releasing the air slowly. Repeat for several minutes. Deep breathing activates your parasympathetic nervous system, which deactivates the “fight or flight” response. In short, it tells your body that there is no need for panic mode. 2. Make A List Although your brain is not technically filled to capacity, it can sure feel like it is when you struggle with anxiety. Most likely your thoughts are a mental to-do list or a whirlwind of concerns. Rather than trying to remember all the things you need to get done, try writing them down. Throw yourself a bone and free up your headspace. By getting them out of your brain and onto paper, you’ll find that it’s easier to control racing thoughts. Journaling is an excellent outlet, as well. Even writing down a few sentences about your concerns helps to calm worries. 3. Live In the Present Living in the present seems like it would come naturally. When you’re trying to control racing thoughts, though, living in the present has to become deliberate. You’ve probably noticed that thoughts have a tendency to get stuck on replay. You might worry about conversations that have already happened or worry about the what-ifs of the future. These patterns only invite anxiety. Shortness of breath and heart palpitations usually aren’t far behind. By living in the present, you can stop these downward spirals before they start. It’s easy, too! You can always anchor yourself in the moment by deep breathing. Also, be especially aware of your surroundings for a few moments. What do you hear, see, smell, taste, etc? You’ll be surprised how effective grounding techniques can really be. 4. Surrender Control Anxiety often stems from the need to feel in control of a situation. This doesn’t make you a control freak. It does, however, make you susceptible to anxious feelings simply because you aren’t always able to control life. It’s hard to accept and understand that life is often uncontrollable. Sometimes it’s even harder to know what you can and can’t control. In these moments, recite a mantra or even a positive quote surrounding the fact that you can’t always control life. A few simple words said aloud can help your brain surrender the need for control. 5. Shift Your Attention Another way to control racing thoughts is to sidetrack your brain. Ruminating is harmful to your mental state but so difficult to stop. Much like a broken record player, thinking about something over and over can drive you into a state of frenzy. Most people don’t have success at forcing themselves to stop thinking about something. You’ve got to trick your brain, per se. Choose something in your environment that you can think about—the trees swaying, the sound of your computer tapping, or even how it feels to do the deep breathing exercise. Focus on that one thing for a few minutes. This simple interruption can speak volumes to your brain and help you control racing thoughts. Like mentioned before, anxiety absolutely does not have to rule your life. By implementing these five tips, you can invite calmness and peace into your life. For more help in finding ways to battle anxiety in your own life, please contact me. I’d be happy to help you strategize a personalized way for you to manage anxiety and help you live a more satisfying life.

A Response to pastors who counsel women to help their porn-using husbands avoid porn by being more sexually available.

Have you recently experienced a significant loss? Maybe it was the death of a loved one or the end of a relationship. You might have even lost your job. No matter the loss, it was a huge blow to you. Since this experience, your mind may become overactive. Your racing thoughts feel out of control…or rather like they’re in full control of you. In fact, when you start to feel anxious, your breathing becomes labored. Sometimes you have a pain in your chest and feel tension in your muscles. Other times, you feel an overall horribly heavy feeling that just won’t leave. What can you do? Take Time for Yourself Moving forward from a significant loss is not an easy process. It’s not even a neat and clean process. It is, however, very possible to recover from a loss. The most important thing is that you have to allow yourself time to grieve. Grief counselor, Megan Devine, Huffington Post, 2013, said, “Kubler-Ross identified five common experiences, not five required experiences. Her stages (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance) were meant to normalize and validate what someone might experience in loss and grief.” According to Patrick O’Malley, Getting Grief Right, 2017, “Everyone’s grief is different, but it’s safe to say there is no finish line.” So you might find yourself running in emotional circles which manifest themselves in your mind as racing thoughts and anxiety. This is normal. There is no right or wrong way to experience your grief. The most important thing is that you acknowledge how you feel about your loss. Improper Grieving Invites Anxiety It’s common to put on a brave face when you’re experiencing a big loss. You might be the pillar in your family. Others depend on you to be strong for them. When you choose not to mourn your loss but rather put on a brave face, you’re suppressing grief. Unfortunately, grief doesn’t work that way. The more you try to suppress your emotions, the worse your anxiety often takes over. In short, not allowing yourself to grieve properly is like giving anxiety the key to your mind to let racing thoughts have free reign. In doing this, you might even experience panic attacks. After a loss, you have to bend a little. You can still be the strong pillar that you want to be. Instead of rigid stone, though, imagine a pillar of wood. It’s flexible and sways with the wind, but it doesn’t break. That can be you as you grieve. You can bend under the pressure of external forces, but can you still remain standing upright. Dependency Can Cause Racing Thoughts No matter what you recently lost, you might have depended heavily on it. Losing something or someone you depended upon will frequently cause panic and anxiety. For instance, you may have lost your job or lost the loved one that provided financially for you. Now you are left to fend without that arrangement. That thought alone is enough to send racing thoughts of fear barreling through your mind. You may feel like you’re about to lose control because you have no idea how you will pay your bills at this point. Not only did you lose something that you care about but you lost your peace of mind. Blurred visions, a racing heart, and night sweats may be a few of the unfriendly symptoms of the aftermath of your loss. You might feel like you’re scrambling to make ends meet and don’t have time for anything else—not even grieving. Thus, the cruel partnership of physical symptoms and anxiety gets stronger. Internalized Fears Welcome Anxiety Losing a loved one especially can cause you to internalize your fears. Fear of death or even dreading your own demise are fairly common thoughts after a memorial. In losing your job or a special relationship, you may constantly be battling the fear of failing in life. You may be fighting the thought that you aren’t good enough or that it’s too late for you to make something of yourself. Maybe you want to make your deceased loved one proud, prove your co-workers wrong, or even make your ex realize what he or she is missing. It’s easy to internalize fears like this. Instead of living on the offense, you choose to live on the defense. The downfall in all these racing thoughts is that you give fear the reigns in your life. Rather than truly living, you’re just trying to prove to yourself and others that you’re good enough. Overcoming Racing Thoughts It difficult to experience a significant loss only to feel anxiety and then battle racing thoughts on top of it. In looking for a reprieve from the complications that arise from a loss, turn to a professional. I can help you navigate through your grief and manage your racing thoughts. Together, we can examine the symptoms you may be experiencing in your body and trace them back to your anxiety or emotional triggers. Happiness and wholeness are within your grasp. Take the first step in reclaiming your life and talk to a therapist today.

What did she have that I didn’t? How could she have chosen him over me? Often, those are the questions a person may ask when their relationship has been devastated because of their spouse’s infidelity. Perhaps your relationship/marriage is on the brink of being destroyed right now? If so, you’re probably feeling very unprepared for it all. But then, how does anyone prepare for the hurt, anger, and sleepless nights anyway? The answer is: there is no prep course for this. There may not even be an explanation for it. Or could it be that your partner’s addiction to porn had something to do with it? The Destruction and Realization Your partner’s choices have undoubtedly altered your relationship and also damaged your self-esteem. There are many days when you most likely don’t even feel like yourself. The flirting, the lies, the compulsive use of pornography – you have grown to despise it all. And you’re angry because you feel that these elements have played a role in the destruction of your relationship. Your anger is justified. Studies have shown that there is a strong connection between exposure to pornography and infidelity. But even before your spouse cheated, you may have had to already fight a lot of negative and self-disparaging thoughts throughout the decline of your relationship. “My spouse doesn’t want me anymore.” Commonly believed to add “spice” to one’s sexual experiences, porn is widely misconstrued. In fact, it’s counterproductive. Not only does it take away from its viewer’s sexual experience, but it also considerably decreases sexual satisfaction. The problem your spouse’s habit created started to greatly affect you as well. In time, you may have noticed that your partner had trouble with arousal. These issues can quickly chip away at one’s confidence level and sexuality. Most likely, you’re now experiencing less confidence and confusion about your sexuality. It’s no surprise that you often feel rejected and undesirable. You thought you were the problem, but you weren’t! It wasn’t your looks, personality, or sexual performance that influenced your spouse. It was your spouse’s compulsive porn viewing! And now, it has become painfully evident how the effects of their addiction to pornography had slowly but surely trickled down to you. “We’re no longer close.” As well as decreased sexual satisfaction, porn viewers experience a decline in intimacy. Intimacy is that special feeling of closeness a couple shares. While intimacy is frequently coupled with sexual intercourse, it goes beyond that. Sadly, the effects of porn viewing quickly destroy this shared feeling of trust. You may have caught your spouse secretly watching porn and self-stimulating. The feelings of rejection and confusion may have been very intense. You felt like you could no longer trust your spouse. The fact is, porn reduces intimacy and sex to mere actions and genitalia. It decreases a human from a real person down to sex organs because that’s the focus of the videos. When a couple in a healthy relationship makes love, it encompasses so much more than bodies. After exposure to porn, it’s often all reduced to a matter of going through the motions when having sex. And it’s not at all uncommon for a porn viewer to have difficulty reaching orgasm because of this. In fact, some can only climax when thinking of pornographic images. How often you may have longed for true intimacy – so much more than sex. But it was hard to feel like anything more than a sexual object with the poison of porn twisting the beauty of your sex life. “I’m no match for those ‘greener pastures.’” The characters on television—porn included—are typically no match for the everyday person. With airbrushed this and that, everything is represented perfectly. Furthermore, porn is a constant reminder of the potential partners one could have. Whether or not the “real thing” is identical to the porn characters doesn’t matter. It creates mental fantasies that become addicting. This in itself lowers the commitment level of your spouse toward you. The idea of you being jealous of your partner’s porn characters holds validity. The more porn they viewed, the more likely they were to engage in flirtatious behavior. Even more than relationship dissatisfaction, the idea of another sexual partner could have been motivation enough to your spouse to have looked for “greener pastures.” Recovery and Healing Rebuilding a devastated relationship because of a porn addiction can be a big challenge. The good news is that it’s possible if you want to take that step. So, if you’re looking for guidance and support in this process, I’m here to help. I can provide a caring and compassionate environment for you to start on your path to understanding and healing. Please contact me to learn more about my holistic and integrative approach.